P90X: day47 soulless

Robotic, emotionless, blank......
that's how I would describe myself while I was doing the Legs&Back/AbRipperX today. Somehow, for some ungodly reasons I was able to convince myself to just press play. I was able to complete all the exercise routines, was in a lot of pain but it seems I wanted the pain to just burn me. Bring it or Just do it! All I know is that whether or not I'm gonna do it this day will just pass.

It doesn't make any difference.

It's what I would describe as halfway frustration. For those who can relate, I'm almost halway through my P90X workout without any results to show. I'm not sure if my weighing scale is wrong, but everyweek when I weigh it says 150. 150. 150.... sometimes even more.. I'm just venting here... it frustrates me really. I'm frustrated at myself for not knowing how to do what needs to be done to get the job done. I know I need to redo my diet, just don't know how. I'm not a soda drinker, I'm not into sweets or fast foods.. but yeah, I have my weaknesses.. coffee, cigarettes, weekend binge, weekend beer... but Hey! I watch what I eat. On any working day I eat a salad, bread and protein bar mostly... I don't cook so my options are limited.

Try as I might I'm just not getting anywhere... or am I? (that waits to be seen....)